The Waking Eye

I collect nuts in the hope of nurturing the great sundered tree within. I'm trying to construct the overarching frame based off directed wandering, a kind of prolegomena to a mystical experience. Another thing that really helps is "art". We experienced an entire night of art (and art parties) a few days ago. Hurried impressions will have to do. Giant chess set under a ginat cardboard box in the sky--ten-year-old DJs in a gymnasium full of rubber balls--watching light stream in from behind a tree in thick fog--watching fire jugglers from the same fog--staring into nothing but fog: nothing but white--here our experienced wiped bare, laid bare, taken up a notch by being screened--muddy-soled people vanishing into fat air--midnight solitude-benches of confession taken up an inappropriate level--I can think of at least one person who would have eaten human flesh to be here today--shadow puppets on the clouds--fearful revelry on the back of a giant turtle--searching for a stick in the reeds--"here are all the people that will probably be at your funeral"--staring at the mandala and dreaming of life a nightmare--ephemeral wire sculptures feminine as the moon--great winking Jupiter-eyes of sheep grazing repetitively--(the story begins here)--sky tree vibrations in the arch of my foot--hot chocolate with wisps of cinnamon--yurts in reading rooms settung up a disco-sauna--Conrad-esque hallways--echoic listening experiments--bored ushers talking to stay awake--cordoned and pigeonholed and soaking with sweat and rain and fog--choke on fog--light the bowl--dream of the shadow of your umbrella--subborn feminists turned to stone--"we should do this every night"--freestyle spoken-word chance untaken, unbidden, regretted--mystical and bored--housewarming invites--the madness--the muzak--we'll not be be back again for a year.

Consider: "me-ism - a search by an individual, in the absence of training in traditional religious tenets, to formulate a personally tailored religion by himself. Most frequently a mishmash of reincarnation, personal dialogue with a nebulously defined god figure, naturalism, and karmic eye-for-eye attitudes."